Woke up extra early at 5 plus in the morning cos' i need to get down to SIM management house for the National Management Competition Qualifying round at 0730 hr... didn't hear about the competition before, much less intend to join it, but it was my camp mate and now fellow classmate, zhengyi who asked me to join his team of, i must say, very proactive and vocal people who left me with more than impressed at the end of the event... here you have people who throws up ideas ever so enthusiastically and left me wondering what the hell was i doing there in the first place at all. I kinda felt like a free rider... most of the time i would be listening to what they have to say instead of contributing to the discussion, and whatever i said were mere logic... i don't feel good about myself at all... especially in discussions where i spoke too little for the likes of myself, somehow i feel i need to do something to affirm my existence, lest i find myself becoming a leech... which i deeply detest people of such... Blame it on the numbers and the orgy of information on those cursed balance sheets... just not my cup of tea, and the reason why i chose marketing as my major... blame it too on my attitude towards the whole thing as just another simulation game... Or then again, there can never be too many indian chiefs in a team... i don't know, maybe it's just a lame excuse for my incapacity... Kinda felt let down by my performance and towards zhengyi... he must have seen something in me that justifies his choice in asking me to join his team, then i was so bloody quiet throughout the whole competition... but then again i might be wrong about his reason for doing so... hahahaha... whatever it might be, i recognise his eye for talented people (ahem...) and appreciate his efforts greatly... and i look forward to the next time we could work together again...