PISSED...

The mad dog in my house is barking incessantly again and I need to do my journals in peace. What she didn't realise is her mindless rantings can actually reverberate around the surrounding flats, especially in the dead of the night. The neighbours must be cursing and swearing. Maybe I'll make a poster with a caption below her picture: "Willing to put up for adoption. Easy maintainence as long as there is food and a TV set." Then, at the bottom of the poster is the disclaimer: "Prone to occasional fits - buyer to bear all responsibilities. No refunds included" and paste it near the lift lobby for any kind souls willing to do some charity and relieve me of my misery. *Barking in the background again...* *Takes a deep breath* I shall refrain from blowing my top... must tahan...

ONE PROJECT DOWN!!! ONE PROJECT DOWN!!! *MEDIC!!!*

Yeah, just finished my 5,000 word international marketing report in the school lab... don't you just hate editing? and the perfectionist in you? didn't manage to attend the last marketing lecture of my entire life (I hope...) and they were doing a recap of the module and going through exam tips. Nevermind, I can get them from my classmates later. Hehe...

My ankle injury is getting worse, I think. It is not helped by the fact I still went ahead to play soccer and night jogs have taken its toll. Its been hanging there for about a week and a half and despite a trip down to the chinese sinseh, it still hasn't healed one bit. I'm beginning to seriously doubt the ability of the shiatsu technique the baldy ah pek at bedok reservoir is famed for. Now my ankle has a sickening clicking sound when I try to bend it to my left. o_O"

Tonight, I'm gonna go for the more trusted orthodox style - the merciless and brutal grinding of my ankle and my feet. Yeah, pain... I like... haha...

RUNNING EMPTY

It has been a really tiring week gone past. A rushed project that culminated in me forgoing sunday soccer and a marketing presentation that just ended today. Finally can catch my breath? For now yeah, but come the next few days I'm gonna have to pick up the pace again. What's new? Another fresh new round of assignment deadlines. This time round it includes a whooping 5,000 words report on international marketing. Kickass...

To look on the bright side of things, more work is good. Work numb the senses. Jogging numb the senses. Soccer with my buddies numb the senses. Burning rubber down the highway numb the senses. Emotional therapy the way I like it. I have kinda gotten hooked on it already. Call me an escapist even houdini would be proud of. And I'm loving every minute of it, or am I not? At least it helps me forget what a heartache really feels like... for the first time.

Don't be mistaken though. I'm not feeling sore. I'm just ruing over what could have been a dream come true, at least that's what I see. I really thought the long search is over, that I had found THE one, someone whom you know you just have an instant connection to. Potential soulmate, IF there is ever one. I tried in my own little ways to prove myself even though I knew the odds are stacked firmly against me. I also happen to know that it takes 2 hands to clap. But I just had to do it. Life is too short for regrets. I would kick myself in the teeth hard if I let this chance go begging past. I'd swear even if I were to do it over again, I would gladly go through everything without whine or whimper.

Going to school and putting on a false front is hard. But I can handle it. Oscars should give me an award.

Great Expectations

Had lunch with only lye heng after soccer today *finally! after 2 weeks of no soccer on sundays!!!* cos' the other guys have to rush off to do their own stuffs. After that, we chatted for more than 3 hours under the cooling mist fan of S-11 foodcourt in bedok. To think in many ways, we share quite similar experiences in certain areas of our lives. The heartache, the immense pain and endless torturous nights when someone is taken away right before your very eyes... why this? why that? what did I do wrong?... who can comprehend? Sometimes, it really takes an outsider to bring everything into perspective, and as much as I want to see things in the most positive light I possibly can, sometimes things aren't really that rosy after all? I'm really confused big time...

In life, the greater the expectation, the bigger the disappointment... Nothing can hurt more than the truth... Moral of the story: Better luck next time buddy? Arrgghh...

RAINDROPS KEEP FALLING ON MY HEAD...

I declare that I love the gloomy feel and pit-pattering of raindrops that comes with the dark skies - always a good time to do some self reflection... I was getting ready to leave for school this morning when it started to rain again. So I decided to stay put at home for a few rounds of Gunbound while I wait for the showers to pass by... hahaha... me is still THE gunbound addict... it's a pretty darn good game to play if you have time to kill...

And yeah, more blogs to keep you guys busy while you're here... I've just added a new one to the fellowship - my school mate charlene's... and also uploaded more pictures at imagestation... haha... that's all for now... back to the dreaded BGGC journals... booyakasha!!! *tries to act like Ali-G and a funny hand gesture to boot*